165TO120

There is no progress at all! Hanging at 150. It sucks!

Cannot express how much I am disappointed in myself. Its the end of october and I am still clinging on 150 Lbs. I do not know. I am falling back. My zest is gone. 

Nope. Nope. Nope. Nothing is working. I am not following anything. Bowing to my craving patterns. I am wondering what happened to my discipline(Its thrown out of the window, I guess). I really am not in control. I wake up I plan something for the day and I mess up and finally I give up. This has been the thing for the past months. I have to do this. I HAVE TO. I am still stuck at 150.4 Lbs by the way.

Its 151 lbs. I have been wobbling between 150 and 151. Its has been very slow process. I am not disciplined like the past months. I think its because if my menstrual cycle. Again it has changed from regular to a delayed pattern. I think it has changed since the August month. Low moods and  energy are taking over. I feel a lot of slug to move my body. I dont think I can do the exercise routine like before. So I am planning to solely depend on my diet. Like I said I am eating my regular every day food. No restrictions except the calories. So by the end of this month october i want to lose 2 lbs atleast and stay there. I know its a lot to expect but I will try.

For the past 2 days I can say I can feel in control of my body, my actions, my emotions. The past 20 days has been out of control for me. I am glad atleast now, I can "think" I am in control and I can do it. I have been doing intermittent fasting for a long time(May 2019) 16:8 and (doing HIIT on and off). Now I want to tap in to the OMAD(One Meal A Day). Been reading the fasting benefits and how it can reduce the insulin resistance more with OMAD. I want to change my weight homeostasis, bring my weight set point down. Tap in to glucagon. Anyway, I am making an 8 week challenge of OMAD and see my results. Again I dont want to do any diets like Low carb, keto etc, because I want to continue eat what I am eating and not let my weight creep back once I come back to my regular lifestyle. Instead I will try eat healthy and not restrict any food that is staple to me and my family. Lets see how this goes. Give me strength!

Like I mentioned in the previous post. I fell out of wagon. I had to succumb to my periods and hormones. I did not do any exercise, I did not follow any protocol. Just a puppet in the hands of my hormones.

I never thought I could see that number. But the coming weeks are going to be tough. My harmones are taking control. I no longer able to discipline my hunger cravings and binge eating. Flood of sad emotions in mind is giving me hard time. Again thinking of my baby. How can I take control of that, How can I stop feeling guilty. I want to be strong. I want to do this for you baby. I am performing, I am doing day to day activities like a robot, no thought only action. I am scared to have free time. I love my Saha, I love my husband.

After 8 week challenge I weigh 157 now. From 165.