165TO120

surprisingly yesterday i could gather all my strength and drag myself out of the bed and do a 45 minute workout. But I can see the coming week to be difficult. The fatigue, the binge cravings, a weakening motivation. I think my guilt will move me forward. A guilt driven soul.

My emotional eating is getting out of control! I am not able to hold on to my discipline and stay out of carbs.I am afraid all my effort is going down the gutter.

May - 165 Lbs June - 164Lbs  - 1lbs lost July - 159 - 5 lbs lost August - 

I started ta 164 lbs and after 4 weeks I am down to 159. Down 5 lbs. I do not know, to be honest I expected I would lose more. It is what it is! 3 weeks I was doing good, But the 4th week I fell for my hormonal craving, I ate lot of carbs and some sugars. Even though I did  couple HIIT  workouts, I think they compensated. Still a long journey to go. Lets see.

Guilt is my Energy Anxiety is my Art Numb is my Emotion Guilt is my energy. I am performing without thought. If every thing went good, I would have had you in my hands. But something else was written for me. I dont know if its my fault or not but this time I dont want to leave any stone unturned. I am freaked out.I am guilty of everything. In memory of you I am trying to learn new habits. I am doing this weight loss journey for you. Words cannot explain how I am feeling. My stomach is churning.I do not know how I am surviving. The pain , the agony and everything. My baby angel Ruhi- You brought this change in me. The grit I have is because of you. The change I want is for you. This is in memory of you. You are my motivation. you are my strength. I am not sure how far I will go but every pound I lose is for you, just for you.

  60 Days Challenge For 2 weeks I tried 3 days work out a week. Then I tried 4 days work out a week. July 10 Day 10 11 Day11 ✓ 12 Day 12 ✓ 13 Day 13 14 Day 14 15 Day 15 ✓ 16 Day 16 ✓ 17 Day 17 ✓ 18 Day 18 19 Day 19 20 Day 20 21 Day 21 ✓ 22 Day 22 23 Day 23 ✓ 24 Day 24 ✓ 25 Day 25 ✓ 26 Day 26 ✓ 27 Day 27 ✓ 28 Day 28 29 Day 29 ✓ 30 Day 30 ✓ 31 Day 31 ✓ August 1 Day 32 ✓ 2 Day 33 ✓ 3 Day 34 4 Day 35 5 Day 36 ✓ 6 Day 37 ✓ 7 Day 38 ✓ 8 Day 39 ✓ 9 Day 40 ✓ 12 Day 41 ✓ 13 Day 42 ✓ 14 Day 43 ✓ 15 Day 44 ✓ 16 Day 45 ✓ 19 Day 46 ✓ 20 Day 47 ✓ 21 Day 48 ✓ 22 Day 49 ✓ 26 Day 50 ✓ 27 Day 51 ✓ Sep 3 Day 51 ✓ 9 Day 53 ✓ 11 Day 54 ✓ 16 Day 55 ✓ 17 Day 56 ✓ 18 Day 57 ✓ 19 Day 58 ✓ 20 Day 59 ✓ 29 Day 60 30 Day 61 31 Day 62 ...